I am thankful and grateful you provide a way of escape and block things from happening. I took the word "action" literally when I needed to complete action mentally and spiritually. No one can come under me and my roots are still intact. In all honesty, I thought I had all the coaching needed to move forward. I now realize how I'm not just somw ordinary Life Coach, I'm sure more than that. My calling and life requires constant war and consistent need for battle buddies (community).
My haste move forward was because I knew the call to leave my job and became obsessed with needing income. Again recognizing the survival mode mentality of always needing to see the source of "supply". This moment showed lack of trust. Fear of lack and not having answers caused me to spiral out of control instead of turning over control.
Relationships or lack thereof showed rejection still an issue. When circumstances came up I labeled it as a distraction from my advancement and used it as fueled to move forward Silly me.
You cut off my desire to hear "feel good messages" and now I want straight no chaser word although encouraging is good. My spirit was in tuned before I was lol. It giving grief.
Lessons in this. Answers aren't needed. Activity is. And doing nothing is an activity in itself. How can I see you as the God you are and know of you by all your names if I don't create the opportunity to learn?
Now that I'm back with "family" and those that know me best in the shortest amount of time. I can't leave. I can't ever step away. Again, because I'm not ordinary, I need consistency.
I will still continue with "Create in me a clean heart" and "God who never fails, I trust you.
I'm sure there is more but this is what's pressing on me the most. I'll be back later with more.
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