Here I am at the age of 27 and I've just been told that I will not only have difficulty conceiving a child but also carrying one. I'm fresh out of school and this is my first year working in my career so having a family was not in my thoughts. Now that I';m faced with this diagnosis, it begins to be a challenge to face. As a woman, it is our duty to be able to provide children.
Not even realizing what had been done, I got into a relationship out of fear of running out of time. Not only was age a factor in conception but a diagnosis as well. This relationship started 3-4 months after my surgery and being told I have endometriosis.
Now don''t get me wrong, the guy was (still is) a great guy. But did I really get with him because we were a complete match or was it just something to fill a void of some sort. To me it was the perfect set up. He already the cutest little kid that I've grown attached to and in my mind, he already had the child that I didn't have to have. Less pressure on my part. I will say though, even with him having his own, and me loving that baby like it was mine, it didn't take away the feeling of me wanting my own.
He told me on numerous occasions that based on his lifestyle, he didn't think he deserved a girl like me. I'm pretty sure you can guess what I did. I ignored the signs and kept seeing him. It wasn't until I had enough of him being with me and every other girl, that I decided Toya, you gotta do better. I had some good times, great memories, and gained a friend but this was not my final destination but classified as the Pitt Stop.
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